Action Items:

This list of action items is mostly for me but I want them out for accountability and so others may use as a guide line for their own uses.  May not always cross off as for they are ongoing, some may get crossed off as moods and goals are achieved.  Some repeat over and over…

  • Draw in influences
  • Be visual while writing
  • Be verbal while drawing (arting)
  • Be abstract while being literal
  • Combine a variety of unrelated stuff (juxtapose)
  • Forget the rules
  • Make alternative rules
  • Fuck the “man”
  • Be the “man”
  • Resist/react/change/flip/challenge

 

The myth

  • Write daily or as near as possible
  • Paint 6 hours weekly
  • Increase weekly
  • Put out into world
  • Draw, daily – work on body
  • Document
  • Sock it up

 

To riot to

  • Be the awesome
  • Share the awesome

 

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Be the awesome

  • Work hard
  • Play hard
  • Help when needed, stay out when they need to bta
  • Ask “what will I be awesome at today”
  • One step at a time

 

Our Badges

  • Set goals, they are levels
  • Make a place to display them
  • Make them
  • Hit your goals, advance to next level set new goals
  • Repeat

 

Action Item

  • Start small
  • Achievable goals
  • Unachievable goals!
  • Dead lines
  • No excuses/no fear

 

Brain storm the ideas

  • Prep canvases
  • Get back ground down
  • Have fun
  • Do research
  • Paint, paint, paint
  • Sketch some
  • Sell

 

Some freeform stuff

  • Be strong
  • Be a force
  • Grow
  • Nurture
  • Write
  • Draw
  • Meditate
  • Love
  • Be an ass

 

Ides of March – early in the morning/late in the night

  • Once a day – cross off list

 

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Make a Manifesto

  • Lay the roots of man I festo
  • Refine, refine, refine
  • Live it
  • Don’t give up

 

Love only

  • No hate
  • Be great
  • Be

 

Ich bin ein auslander

  • The faces of merica
  • Don’t kill me – a series
  • Paint the hate
  • Drump X
  • Research

 

Obey

  • Look back
  • Fuck the obey

 

The deceit of now

  • Learn all the things
  • Do all the things
  • Be all the things
  • MJ
  • Web site portfolios – on going
  • Portfolio – 1 month
  • Get a job that pays – 3 months
  • Get car paid off – asap
  • Don’t live in box and don’t box in
  • Challenge everything

Insidious Evil

Recent words have been parlayed by the insidious evil called work. With traveling 10 days straight and long hours put on repeat for 2 months has serious and lasting consequences on the creative flow, excuse? Maybe, but a little camping vaca has leveled my conciseness and hopefully I can snap back to the creative flow.

The itch is there and needs to be scratched by a grizzly bear, prepare for some blood red scratching…

To do:

  • Paint finish Foxy, big brush landscapes, coaster paintings, work on commission, skulls, fun figures
  • Draw studies, doodles and freeform subconscious Joungesque, fill up sketch books
  • House projects (better working space) closet modes, table and desk cleanse, lighting???, tbd
  • Writing art blog, RN blog posts, daily journal, food blog, (start of something new), edit posts
  • Illustrations/logos
  • Move to creative life not just work life
  • Be wacky and silly and fuck the “Man”
  • Play
  • Photography carry camera with (not just phone), document more, instagramer-master
  • Background art making build stretchers, collect stuff, observe
  • Personal go out less after work, make the time to do above, be held accountable for this list (your job)
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Tonga

If you got through my stupidness of the to do, congrates…

The message is clear, the target painted, I am here, I will~

He who hides his madman dies voiceless

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Morning Pages a change

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I started working on Morning Pages off and on for many years now (based off of the book The Artist Way) I would go a good 6 months or so and trail off. It always wielded some good ideas but was just more about bitching and what was going on, which is kind of the point, get out the crud so the day would be cleaner mentally.  I would start up again eventually, trail off again and the cycle has continued to now.

My problem with this method is that I get to work early and like to get up and go! Sooner there soon done plus I was finding that they just haven’t been working as advertised, I need something different.

Look, I am not a good writer to begin with, bad spelling, bad grammar. I am a painter for fucks sake!  I was in special classes for reading and spelling when I was young.  That is a story for another time though.

To my point though, I was in Big Rapids MI a few weeks ago for work, I had my MP journal with me. I hadn’t written anything for a year. Wrote one page because I couldn’t sleep anymore and I had a half an hour to kill before we had to get to the client site. Talked about where I was and what I needed to do when I got home.   After that I promptly forgot about it again even though I said I needed to work on the MP’s again.

This last week, I picked it up again. Not in the morning though, and I wrote more abstractly.  I had been thinking of all the strange and fun stuff I have done in my life to date, and what I neede*d to do to continue as I have in the past.  So that is what I wrote about. It was what I wanted to do in my next artist statement.  I do not need three pages of writing, just one.  Adding action items at the bottom (everyone needs action items) more on this later.  I will also be looking back at my ideas and following up with the past writing which is a no no in the Artist ways Morning Pages.  I also pull out an idea from the page and add it as a title for the next day or days when it feels right, I have two days of titles to write about at the moment.  I am creating a new journaling method for me based off of the MP’s, I am calling them Daily Pages, maybe, not sure.  Basically use other ideas and make them your own.  MP’s work for some but don’t follow the rules if it doesn’t work for you.

 

 

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Here are my first actions items:

  • Be visual while writing
  • Be verbal while drawing (arting)
  • Be abstract while being literal
  • Combine a variety of unrelated stuff (juxtapose)
  • Forget the rules
  • Make alternative rules
  • Fuck the “man”
  • Be the “man”
  • Resist/react/change/flip/challenge

Titles so far, the myth, to riot to, label yourself, be the awesome.

 

 

 

Collapsing Reality

Last of it?

I am in no state to figure it out at the moment, I think I am a bit delusional at the moment.

Everything seems a bit surreal but only slightly, like I am in a shifted universe.  Waiting for reality to collapse into one possibility or another…

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Since my last post (which I stated that I would be posting more and have started a half dozen post since) I have spent 40 days and night in Tennessee for work, 4 trips @ 10 days and mostly 12+ hour days…

Home time is 4 days at a time, I have been productive for the most part, 2 paintings finished, one sold, several started, some R&R, etc…

After the first trip I tried to be productive as well on the road, not easy but I did finish up a sketchbook (de-constructing the box), and filled out 15 or so pages in my tiny sketchbook.  I even sold a drawing to a nice couple from west TN…

Many goals for home time, still waiting to hear if one more trip may happen, pretty sure not but that is what I thought last time.

Coming up, talks about the two paintings that are done, de-constructing the box sketchbook, goals and the like!

 Oh, I will be showing my art in the St. Paul Art Crawl, more details to come! (and if I am not in TN or elsewhere)

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thwarted

The gods have had some cruel plans for me and goals I have set forth.  They through two last minute work trip at me consisting of 9 days on 12 hours a day with 5 days home and repeat the fun and joy again.  I got some drawing done in the hotel bar and only have (1) one page left until that book is done!

It was interesting, while I was drawing an older couple was watching me intently and finally asked what I was drawing and what kind of art I do.  Tossed them the sketchbook and they started flipping through it, commenting and asking questions.  I spent some time talking to them, especially her, she is an inspiring artist, wanting to create after she retires and was intent on asking about process and the like.  He found a drawing that really talk to him, asked if he could buy it!  I don’t often sell right out of the sketchbook but this drawing had no sentimental value so I said sure.

deep in the urban jungle
deep in the urban jungle

While I was between trips I did get some paintings worked on, one almost done and two started.  I thing they will need their own post however.

Back to painting tomorrow!

fa(i)lling

The creative well sat dry this past week, in other words, to my despair, I didn’t get much done on the creative.  It was like being blanketed with a fine coat of heavy, wet snow that chilled the creative life right out of me.  I had a nice fire going, now I need to throw some sticks and a few logs on with a gallon of gas to get that fire raging again.  Stay warm…

I won’t fall/fail for long!

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end of these days

Even though I deep down do not believe in “writers/artist blocks” I feel as if I have been going through something often described as artist block.  It has been brought on by a slew of “life issues” and changes that have had made life anywhere from tragic to sad to happy to generally busy.  I won’t go into the details now but if you have followed me here, fb, deviant art or livejournal you may know some of the back stories that have brought me to this point.  All these things have had a “Psychological Payment” to my creative self/life and something I will have to cash it out with great fervor.

The roads that lead me to the here and now have been paved with remorse or have the grisal of a gravel road while speeding , barely able to hold on to the road.  That is how I am going to get back my creative self, unabashed…

One technique to this goal is to draw with full body involved with no goal involved, just big chunks of charcoal, a white eraser and large sheets of paper and go fucking at it… this kind of drawing can still have purpose and meaning to it along with esthetic beauty and be a real work of art but can also be done and thrown out without feeling bad about trashing it also.

I have also returned to morning pages, a technique of writing free form, just whatever comes to mind, see last post for a little more vagueity on this…

Here is an example of one quick full body drawing I did, I also really like it.  The energy and the line work really expresses the feeling I was going through at that moment.

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A re(focus)

In the past few years life has taken some strange turns which have had major consequences to my inner and outer life.  In an ongoing conversation with someone I met late this summer/early fall we have been taking about creative needs and writing and the power there of.  We even went back to some posts here to give examples for our points.  This has inspired me to re(focus) myself and get backing into writing on a regular basis about things that are important for me to get out.

Mostly there will be concepts about art/creative outlets, self and inner self issues, big picture/politics ongoing and historic along with worldly and local interests.  This might even help with projects new and ongoing, not to mention a lot of meandering muses.

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WTF, I really hate saying what I am going to do in the future and not follow through with it.  Is reward/punishment a way to get re(focused).  No, the act of doing should be enough reward/punishment as it were.  Just that ACT OF DOING…

Some of this stems from a conversation that has been slinging around about my dad who passed in October 2009 and how the act of doing (writing, drawing, creating) had made the experience copeable*, something that helped process the emotions, and information that was coming on a nearly daily basis.  In hind sight it also has become a record of what it was like at the time of his illness and his final days with us.  So much so that even though not everything was written down a lot of the events even some of the extraneous stuff has come back in a wash.  Now it isn’t easy reliving some of this shit but I have to say it has brought clarity to the need of being who I am and back to find what is important in my live (creative life).

* Not really a word but I think it works and is understandable

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eddies of life~

Art and art projects are always an ebb and flow for me, sometimes I get stuck in the eddies of life.  The flow can be unpredictable and intangible not unlike the creative process.  What might happen to the ever fractioned world that I seem to be living?  The online presence, home life, inter personal relationships, work life, etc. all have a pull that is not currently beneficial to the overall creative process.  De-fractioning life and pushing things back together as they once were must be the focus of living, only adding things that can fit such a model of being…

 

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Nurturing self, and loved ones…

Finding balance…

Enjoying the things…

Removing the others…

Writing to find…

Organizing for sanity…

Exploring to renew…

Creating for joy…

Encouraging to teach…

Reaching out for help…

Solitude to recharge…

Weekends work w/ lessons learned

This weekend was not quite as productive as I was hoping.  I did get some things done and feel good about what I did get done but I learned a bit about what has been holding be back.  I will be writing about my ideas of artistic blocks soon but for now I want to focus on what I found I was doing or not doing and what was actually accomplished.

Let’s start with the good news, I did a drawing with a little bit of watercolor in my deconstructing the box sketchbook.  Nice to get some real drawing from life done!  I spent about a half an hour drawing a head of garlic and it turned out nice.  In hind sight I think I should have warmed up with some gestures drawings, next drawing session I will include at least ten quick drawing.  Setting up a sketch book just for that will be helpful. 

 


garlic.jpgI also worked on a long narrow piece of printing paper and drew the same head of garlic but it was on its head and some lemon wedges in pen.  I am going to be adding some acrylic paint and maybe some collage elements to the drawings.  I will be also adding one more element to it, not sure what yet and I am not sure if I will be cutting the piece up or leaving it whole.  At the moment the composition is not great but as I add elements this should change.  Go figure, I am drawing food, but I am planning on using these drawing as illustrations on my food blog at some point!

Now to lessons learned, I have a feeling this will be hard to write but here it goes.  Biggest problem is distraction, or allowing myself to be distracted.  Everything from internet to dishes seems to distract me at the moment.  I tried to get most of the stuff I feel I need to do before I start my art making but there always seems to be more to do.  I am not sure if this is procrastinating ploy or I just am being A.D.D. or what.  I have a feeling it is a bit of both.  Problem is I don’t have a neutral place to create art at the moment. 

I also find myself wanting to do to much at one time, gets overwhelming and paralyzing when that happens.  I need to look at the task at hand an run with it until I need to move on. Work on a piece until it tells me it needs to live and only then move on to other projects.  I think work is the culprate that gives me this problem because I am always multi tasking at work, putting out fires and doing things that need to get done NOW NOW NOW for this reason or that. 

There is more but I think I will leave it at that for now, more fodder for future posts!