Insidious Evil

Recent words have been parlayed by the insidious evil called work. With traveling 10 days straight and long hours put on repeat for 2 months has serious and lasting consequences on the creative flow, excuse? Maybe, but a little camping vaca has leveled my conciseness and hopefully I can snap back to the creative flow.

The itch is there and needs to be scratched by a grizzly bear, prepare for some blood red scratching…

To do:

  • Paint finish Foxy, big brush landscapes, coaster paintings, work on commission, skulls, fun figures
  • Draw studies, doodles and freeform subconscious Joungesque, fill up sketch books
  • House projects (better working space) closet modes, table and desk cleanse, lighting???, tbd
  • Writing art blog, RN blog posts, daily journal, food blog, (start of something new), edit posts
  • Illustrations/logos
  • Move to creative life not just work life
  • Be wacky and silly and fuck the “Man”
  • Play
  • Photography carry camera with (not just phone), document more, instagramer-master
  • Background art making build stretchers, collect stuff, observe
  • Personal go out less after work, make the time to do above, be held accountable for this list (your job)

If you got through my stupidness of the to do, congrates…

The message is clear, the target painted, I am here, I will~

He who hides his madman dies voiceless


A re(focus)

In the past few years life has taken some strange turns which have had major consequences to my inner and outer life.  In an ongoing conversation with someone I met late this summer/early fall we have been taking about creative needs and writing and the power there of.  We even went back to some posts here to give examples for our points.  This has inspired me to re(focus) myself and get backing into writing on a regular basis about things that are important for me to get out.

Mostly there will be concepts about art/creative outlets, self and inner self issues, big picture/politics ongoing and historic along with worldly and local interests.  This might even help with projects new and ongoing, not to mention a lot of meandering muses.


WTF, I really hate saying what I am going to do in the future and not follow through with it.  Is reward/punishment a way to get re(focused).  No, the act of doing should be enough reward/punishment as it were.  Just that ACT OF DOING…

Some of this stems from a conversation that has been slinging around about my dad who passed in October 2009 and how the act of doing (writing, drawing, creating) had made the experience copeable*, something that helped process the emotions, and information that was coming on a nearly daily basis.  In hind sight it also has become a record of what it was like at the time of his illness and his final days with us.  So much so that even though not everything was written down a lot of the events even some of the extraneous stuff has come back in a wash.  Now it isn’t easy reliving some of this shit but I have to say it has brought clarity to the need of being who I am and back to find what is important in my live (creative life).

* Not really a word but I think it works and is understandable


note on the day

Today I am planning on getting some stuff done, first of all I want to get into the studio and get some painting done.  I also have an AutoCAD drawing that I am planning on finishing for a small freelance job I am working on.  The other big job I think I will be doing is re-photographing all my art that is lying around the house, it is such a nice sunny day that I think it will be a great day for it.  I mainly like the thought of having them mostly consistent with my nice camera!


My website needs a good going over, oh hell, I will say it, it needs a good redesign.  I am planning to add useful content also, stuff that I see people are searching for in my analytics.  The first such thing, strangely enough, will be tutorials for book binding, will start that today and add as I go along.  Yeah, I get a lot of searches for Coptic binding and book binding tutorials.  The other big area will be my gallery, finely found a good spry web 2.0 photo gallery that I am going to modify (be lots easier then what I tried to do before) so it will be easier to update, and god knows I need easy!


Need to make some more ad rev from my site so at least I can pay for its self.


Will go see mom today at some point, she comes home from the hospital tomorrow, saw my dad the last four days so I will take a day off from him today, but he is getting better too, but still a long road before he can leave.